Self talk.

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"You’re calling again 
and i wish i can say that im strong enough
to not answer anymore
but it’s almost three in the morning
and im slightly tired and your old ringtone is ringing through my ears so loud my heart is starting to ache
so maybe i’ll answer 
and you’ll tell me you miss me 
even if you’re drunk and slurring your words again
and i’ll pretend it doesn’t hurt while i tell you i miss you too even though you wouldn’t remember this in the morning
you were always a heavy drinker
and i wish i was strong enough to not answer anymore 
especially when you’re calling me in the middle of the night because you’re lonely
but let’s face it 
you’re calling again 
and it’s almost three in the morning
and you always did know i’d answer"
—3 in the morning and you’re calling again

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